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I am a selfish bitch :(

2011-09-07T21:07:00.001+08:00

Come to think of it, I am pretty selfish. =\
I know it's bad to talk about death as it is something most, well everyone, fears.
But, it'll come eventually right?
I'm actually so selfish that I'd rather have myself dead before everyone else does, especially the ones I love.
I know it is hard, REAL hard to watch people you love leave. Leave as in, forever.

I'm actually so selfish that I would have people cry and mourn over me and me myself relieving from the shallow real world, being lifted to the profound world after life, wherever there will be, I bet it will be far more favorable as compared to the excruciating pain, to watch people I love, perish from the face of earth. Leaving me behind with only the mere memories of them, and feeling helpless, indulging myself in the utmost sorrow and sadness. Watching people around me cry and scream over the death of others just feels like the knife in my heart being pushed, deeper through my chest. The comforting words don't make any of this easily. How could someone be possibly happy when someone else, is dead? Not able to live their life to the fullest, not able to fulfill their last wishes, not able to breathe, like us. Everyone knows no matter how hard you try to get over it, to move on, to believe that those that have left are at a better place, watching us from upon, there will be a thought inside of you, constantly pushing through, surfacing itself to remind you that, the deceased does not deserve this any less than you. Therefore, you will not be truly, truly happy, from within. Even if it does, it does not stay long. The thought of someone is dead, and being at an unknown place right now haunts me. Are they actually happy? Are they in peace? Do they still exist, somewhere? Are they watching us? Those thoughts unable to be fully suppressed, it'll bound back like a spring and hit you harder than before, bringing around a mental breakdown, perhaps?

In conclusion,
I AM selfish. I'd rather be DEAD than to WATCH death.

: I

2011-07-23T03:15:00.003+08:00

Hmm,
I guess this blog is the only place where I could pour my heart out atm.
Since both my facebook and twitter are added/followed by some oh-so-nosy people who constantly tease/questioning about my statuses/tweets.
I need my space people, i seriously do.
I can tweet about whatever i like,
I wanna tweet about what I'm doing,
I wanna tweet about what I'm thinking,
And most of all, I wanna tweet about who I am thinking of.
It's none of yo beeswax. srsly.
And seriously, why are you so interested in my relationships?
It's not like it's affiliated with yours. You have your girlfriend, go pay attention to her instead. jeez.

Okay, now that i've got that aside.
Let's talk about my so called productive day?
I slept the almost half the day,
But it felt good tho cause I know I'm not being a total swine alone.
And woke up around 10pm-ish?
Which is way WAY pass dinner time and apparently, everyone in the house are out for FRIDAY NIGHT OUT.
That explains how lifeless I am.
But it's all good. I enjoy being lifeless. =)
Then I'd decided to watch movie instead of doing the pending piles of assignments.
I know that I am not suppose to chill at a time like this, but, what can i say? I major in procrastination.
The movie really helped me survive the night without a certain someone.
Cause apparentlyyy, he's sick and he needs all the rest he could have. Get well soon, baby:).

Guess, I have lost my flair for blogging.
That is indeed sad.
Let's mourn.
I NEED IT BACK.

signing off. you bore me.

Love,
Amanda,
imy.

Stressing out!

2011-07-16T02:50:00.001+08:00

Ohmaigosh, you have no idea how time just flies like that.
Before you know it, it's July already!
And my course ends on October.
The second sem is freakishly stressing me out.
Assignments/presentations/exams are crashing in like hdisifbdblomg.
I don't even have my own time.
Just to stay home and read a good book for a day. I miss that.
And even during holidays, it's for studying cause right after the break, then it's the exam.
Like, it's not even a holiday for god's sake!
Or else I'd be working.
Working is fun, I like working cause I feel like, I actually belong with them.
At school, everyone has their cliques and partners, there's not room for outsider, *coughs me *coughs.
Since my friend already left the course, it's gonna be just me from here on out.
Awesomeness.
But working takes up all my time,
So I had to stop for the moment.
So am going to explode.
Pretty boring post.
Deal with it people! Am out of brain juice.

Goodnight peeps.
Imy. :) xoxo

Sweet dreams!

Exactly.

2011-06-04T21:24:00.002+08:00

Zomg I'm so bored help!

2011-06-01T14:42:00.001+08:00

Hey ya'll.
I'm bored
Kthanksbye.

<3

This is killin' me.

2011-05-30T21:47:00.003+08:00

The answer I wanted the most and am the most afraid of is you saying "okay".

Please be in love with someone else.
It will make me feel better.
Because I am a selfish bitch.

Sorry.

2011-05-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

I Just Want You To Know.

2011-05-30T03:50:00.002+08:00

2nd post in 2011!

2011-05-30T03:34:00.002+08:00

Lol.
It's been like 234125623years since i've last posted here.
As you can see, my English has probably rusted a lil. *ehem, ALOT.
so, please excuse the language.

It's like 3.35am atm.
And I still don't feel like sleeping.
Cause....just cause.

But anyway,
I seriously forgotten how fun it was to blog.
To blog about everything that no one cares about.
Just for the sake of it.

*PS, Marc, if you're reading this. I just wanna say. You are awesome for making through all this time reading my pathetic blog.

I should probably get to bed huh.
Cause apparently class starts at 10am tomorrow.
Sooooooooooooooooooo,
I guess this is it?
Pretty pointless post.
But, who cares!

So buhbye.

"I'll be back!" >:)

1st post in 2011.

2011-05-30T03:24:00.002+08:00

xx Amanda.

Greetings ;)

2010-12-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

why hello there people!
It's been centuries since i last came here.
Well i come on my blog pretty often but just didn't really put up the strength to actually write.
So today's my second day of working.
Yes. I AM working. WORKING. Tho i look 13 i'm 17 now.
My grandma, apparently, couldnt accept the fact that i'm working.
She prefers to refer it as "going to school".
But whatevs. Even if it's "going to school". I still get pay for that. So yay.
If you don't know already, i'm working at Switch aka the Apple store from where I live it.
And no, i don't sell fresh apples. Seriously tho? That joke is getting pretty old. And it's not tad bit funny in my opinion. You seriously think i'd be selling real life apples? You must be trippin' me.
Anyways, work was fun. For starters, it is a great place to learn.
To learn more about technology and whatnot. Tho i'm not a tech savvy kind of girl. But hey, i'm learning.
I've used 2 days, learning and practicing keyboard shortcuts and some techniques. And that, my friend, is the power of will.
My colleagues,lol, notice i've said "colleagues"? So weird, right? Weird is like my IT word right now. So weird.
so...where was i?
Oh yea, my colleagues are pretty awesome. They teach my stuff despite my dumbassness.
I feel like i really drive them up the wall when i'm all dumb and shit.
But i can't help it if i'm born this way.
And the customers i've met are nice.
No meanies. well, not yet. But i hope never.
Cause you know me and my sensitive "feelings"
I'll keep on dwelling on it and never move on. And that's how this girl roll.

Ciao losers.
Cause if you read my blog. You're probably have no life.
Teehee.

*don't hit me. :D

I think I'm in LOVE

2010-10-19T16:22:00.002+08:00

Well, I'd never thought i would say this,
But this guy got my hear pounding everytime i see him.
And don't get me started on the butterflies.

But this is not some kind of revelation.
No spills. No details. No hints.

So shuuuuuuuuuuushhhhhhhhhh.

Justin bieber.

Suppers.

2010-10-19T16:08:00.003+08:00

Sup you guys.
So i've got a confession to make.
I hate myself with a burning passion.
I don't know what i did.
But my heart's all messed up.
I don't know what and how to feel right now.
Maybe it's because of graduation?
Maybe it's hormones?
Maybe it's the exam?
Or is it seeing my old friends again?

I SERIOUSLY DO NOT KNOW!

And um, Bitch, could you please take your scowling elsewhere?
I'm tired of putting up with this.
It's been a year.
And i'm absolutely sorry for what I've have done, which i have no idea what.
But I really don't know what's your problem.
So I'm asking you to please, turn that scowl upside down.
That would look creepy but, creepy looks good on you.

Anyway,
Find a cure for the chunk of junk in my heart.
And i will pay you, 5 Dollarrrrrr.

Hate,
Wong.

I like you, I really really do.

TBH

2010-10-09T23:23:00.001+08:00

To be honest.
I can't hate you.
I never will.

Um, hi?

2010-10-09T22:56:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the MiAs.
I think i've lost my blogging gig.
I just feel like it's kinda dumb to blog since nobody reads it.
But, Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Trials' over.
TY god.
I feel like i always blog after exams.
Weird huh.
Buthjahejbwhhjwhocares.

So. i am here. today. with a message.
And it reads:

I DESPISE YOUR GUTS. Get it cleaned.

-A. XOXO. Much love.

Thats pretty much it. Yeah.

You disgust me with your act of self-debasing.
You call yourself a low self-esteem freak?!
Well, I say you're just an attention-seeker.

And quit talking about me behind my back and using the third-person view on me.
I'm not dumb yo.

And you should know what you did.
I had had enough with this.
I've put up with this for how long? I don't remember.
Though it's not directed towards me.
But hey, i'm a sensitive personne.
I take some of these "smooth moves" of yours seriously.
Just because we're tight like that.

If you really don't know what you did, then you should you know, ask.
Or better yet, don't.
Cause i don't wanna get yelled at or get some silent treatment for telling how i really feel.

If you really DO feel offended, then i am sorry. I am very, very sorry.

So, good day!

So bored. I could die. No joke.

2010-10-01T22:10:00.003+08:00

Hey home dawgsss.
Our trials exam is officially over!
Wait, just when you thought "WOOOOO PARTAY!"
Think again.
Our exam-that-determines-our-future is just around the corner.
Ikr! Sucks eggnogs.
I used to have alot to say;
but now.....
I dont.
Go figure.
So bye peeps. Dont pee in your pants. Cause that's just disgusting.

LOVE-A

*blaring glee dancing and singing. Don't judge.
I think my neighbor saw me. Opps.

Hey yall.

2010-08-26T23:20:00.002+08:00

Heeyyy blogggg.
Do you miss mommy? Oh yes you do, yes you do!
See this, see this thing? you want it? oh you want it?
Go get it! *throws ball.

Okay so now that THAT's out of the way.
We can get back to the point of my fabulous return.

Sorry again. For slacking a TAD BIT lately.
I've been um...........um......
um.......i'm out of excuses. so. um. sorry?

I was planning on a 2 page blog to fill you guys in on whats going on.
But unfortunately, my life's too much of a bore to be written even into 2 sentences even.
Sooooooo
Here y'all go.
A quick HI.
From good old me.

Bye. Peace. Dont hate me. =)

Or do i?

I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE.

2010-08-01T18:08:00.000+08:00

I'm not Antisocial. I'm just Shy.

2010-08-01T17:45:00.002+08:00

Hey dolls.
Been a while huh.
My apologies. Been. kinda. *slaponabunchofexcuses

Anyways
Been reading a couple of my friends' blogs and i feel kinda bad for abandoning my blog.
Sorrrrrrrrrrrrry.
Please dont hate me.
MTV World Stage was yesterday.
And Katy Perry was here. YES! KATY PERRY! And i freaking missed it.
Argh, it was an once in a lifetime chance to actually breathe her air. And I HAD To miss it.

I'm uber excited right now.
Got a bunch of new songs for my on-the-go playlist.
Yayeeeee. Gimme a What whatttttttt

Idk why but i feel like im losing all my friends.
I mean, they dont like hate me. I hope.
But its the other way round.
I'm starting to see flaws in them.
"Oh come on! Everyone has flaws"
Yes i know but...ya know....Flaws that pisses me off.
Okay i better not touch on this subject cause..its touchy?

Movingggggggggg on.
So i heard that people are afraid of me?
I mean, yall serious?
I never thought that people will think this of me.
Yea, i do admit that i dont really talk.
Thats because i'm afraid.
Afraid of the disgusted looks people give me when i talk to them.
Believe me, I've seen ALOT of snotty girls.
And Ive been given ALOTx3 "looks".

*deleted.

Eclipse STUFFFFF!

2010-07-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

GAWD!!!
I'm seriously crying right now!
I can feel myself shaking and my hands and feet are cold as crap.
I want everything eclipse!!
Imaging me wearing the shirt and the bracelet and the necklace and the stuff to watch eclipse!
GADDDWA
I cant even spellllllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyone with a few zillion bucks to spare?!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Teen Crib.

2010-07-03T20:24:00.004+08:00

Hey y'all.
I'm Amanda and I'm from Texas, Tennessee.
And Welcome to my crib.

So this is where I DO MY THANGGG. With my sisters, of course.

And This is My spot. This is the place I'm usually at when you burst into my room. Check out the hot guy on my wallpaper.

And this is mah Grand bed. Where I get my beauty sleep. *ignore the dog.

And THIS my friend, is my chill zone. Its my favourite spot in my room.

Close up to all my babies.

This is my vanity? sort of. Just arranged it an hour ago. Isnt cute?!?! omgomgomg.

Bathroom. *ignore the person in turquoise.

My really really messy closet. It USED to be colour coordinated. Then i got lazy and toss everything in.

My shoes. Well, some of em.

The magazine section.

*****************************************************

So thats all of my crib. I hope you all are jealous cause im a filthy rich bitch!

Okay, Just kidding.
Ignore the vanity. I'm just mocking those people in MTV teen cribs.
Its almost crazy how they have almost everything in their house.
Slides, Theaters, Pools, Secret hideouts, Horse Ranches, Basketball courts, Escalators, etc.
Those lucky bitches. *evil glare.

Anyway, back to reality.
So thats some of my favorite parts of my room.
I just cleaned up my room an hour ago.
And since I've been pretty MIA here.
So, why not brag a little about my room?

Lurve,
.

Crazy Random Facts.

2010-06-19T21:14:00.004+08:00

Since most of my posts are like craps which nobody really cares.
So here I'm gonna do some crazy random facts about moi that will make you go "Woah, this crazy bitch is on Craccccckkkkkk".
Okay no, I'm not on crack.
I'm just eccentric, ya know?

So...Lets do this Thangggg.

One,
I get real OCD before I go to bed. I need ALL the cupboards and doors and curtains to be closed. I'm not like afraid of the boogieman or something, pssh, boogieman, psshhhh, not me....
Anywayyyyy, I also need a bottle of water and a box of tissue next to me at all times. Yep.

Two,
When I eat alot, I get hungry faster. I know! Weird right? I'm not sure if theres some logically or like biological explanation for this but I do. I eat alot when I get hungry, I know everyone does that. But I'll get super hungry after like 10 minutes. But it only happens if I eat alot.

Three,
I sneeze when I'm hot. Its like, im the opposite of a typical human being. Maybe I'm form Mars or something but I do! When its cold, I'll probably start to snuffle but I dont sneeze. When its hot, I'll sneeze my throat out.

Four,
I kinda talk to myself at times. Not like being all crazy but sometimes when im nervous. I'll kinda talk to myself. I so dont wanna go deep about this or i'll start to scare people away. Its not like being a total loner isnt enough.

I have way more random facts than this but I cant come up with any right now.
So I'll post this on first and I'll add in more later so yea,
Thanks bye.

Quickie+Eclipse

2010-06-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

Just a quick update on what i've been up too.
Sorry for being M.I.A for the past couple of days.
I dont know.
Theres just nothing interesting to blog about..
So I hereby beg for forgiveness and so on and so forth.
Anyway, My sisters are eating these terrible scented sweets.
Its like..rotten strawberries or something..Kinda smell like..puke.
Its making me nauseated im dying omg.
I'm barely breathing. No joke.

School's in one more day.
Seriously people, time flies.
Two weeks. Just like that. Gone.
And helllllo School and helllllo grades.
Oh I can reassure you, I'm overwhelmed alright.

So Eclipse's coming.
YES! ECLIPSE!!!!
For those who lives under the rock.
No, Eclipse is not the whole sun being eaten by a dog or something.
Its a movie.
Gosh, get out of the rock.
I'm listening to the soundtrack right now!
The songs are like..so much more upbeat than New moon's.
It's not that depressing. Which is a plus point.
Because everytime people like..say how emo they got when they listen to New moon's soundtrack.
I dont know. I don't feel emo at all. Well, sometimes i do if I really you know..listen intensely.
Like when I think about Edward and stuff.
But if I listen for the sake of listening, I wont like feel emo or whatsoever.
So I'm gonna move on to my next post.
Gonna post something more interesting I hope?

So CiaoGuyssss. <3

THE Perfect Guy. I hope.

2010-06-16T14:25:00.011+08:00

Ever wonder what would your perfect guy be like?
Ever wonder what would MY perfect guy be like?
No?
Okay.
Well,In case you ARE wondering. Or not.
I'm gonna post pics of MY perfect guy whether you like it or not. HAH!
*note: The guys are based on their character whether if he's some fictional character or whatsoever or a real person.

So here we goooo.

Edward Cullen. DUH.

Robert Pattinson. I LOVEEEEE his giggles. Gosh.

Jacob Black. Check out the abs.

Taylor Lautner. He's so very down to earth.

Lucas Till. He's really nice and sweet.

Tim Urban. He's kinda like Lucas Till. Dont cha think?

Penn in Bring it on (Michael Copon). Rumors has it that he was originally going to replace Taylor Lautner in New Moon.

Evan in Bring it On (Cody Longo). I dont know him in reality but he's cute.

Hi

2010-06-11T15:51:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, I'm kinda bored so that kinda explains why I'm blogging alot lately.
You know, I'm all psyched about the holiday and chilling and relaxing and stuff.
Then again, its real boring when theres too much chillaxing.
If you're a student. Well most of you all are. You'll get what I mean.
Unless, you have tres loads of tuition and homeworks and all that nerdy stuff. 8D JK

Okay, mom just came in and told me we're going to a family trip on Sunday?
I thought its on Monday and that I have alot time to pack.
You know how slow I pack.
I'll probably get one outfit picked and then leave the rest for tomorrow.
Yes, being lethargic is my nature.

Okay now theres this one thing that I want to talk about.
Some people just..drive me up the wall sometimes.
I think I've raged about it before. I think. Idk.
I guess you know how much it pisses me off when I'm ranging about it twice.
Here goes,
You know how I dont really remember or mean stuff that I've said most of the time?
Please don't use it against me or quote me for it.
I SERIOUSLY DO NOT! REMEMBER WHAT I'VE SAID.
Some people were like..oh you're just denying and whatever. I'm not. I don't remember.
Sorry but I'm diagnosed with Alzheimer's at a very young age. So yea.
And,
If you do not know what I'm talking about please, guys, please don't just assume that you do.
Just don't make your way into my life and just think that you know everything about me.
You don't okay. Just bug off Mr.Nosypants.
I better stop here before I go on and on about this and slip out something unnecessary that will hurt sensitive people's feelings.
I'm not intentionally addressing at a specific someone, I'm just saying in a general terms?
I apologize if I did hurt your feelings.
Please do bash at me and leave hate comments if that makes you feel any better.

Kthanksbye.

Hungry.

2010-06-10T23:04:00.003+08:00

omg Why am I hungry all the time?
Anyway, again with the unproductive day today.
Was contemplating to go to my friend's house to get some schoolwork done.
Then again, I had to stay home with my sis. Babysitting and whatnot.
My dog came home from the groomers today.
He looks..small,tiny,different.
BUT! He got me raving at him once he got home.
Cause he peed and pooped all over my carpet and my curtains.
YEA! THE CURTAINS for crying out loud! Seriously Dog? Seriously?
I'm gonna be screwed if he reads this.
Sorry brownie. You pisses me off. Please kindly pee and poop at the right place and probably I wont tell my friends bad things about you? Loveyounyways.

Did I mention that I secretly hate people who dont reply to my text/pm/email/whatsoever?
But yet, I do that too. I'm sorry.
Sometimes, I'm just not in the mood for chitter chatter.
So DEAL WITH IT!
I'm real emotional so don't mess with me.

Tell me how do you write an amazing ridiculously interesting blogpost?
Mine's always random babble and being excessively loquacious about stupid things.
No one takes me seriously. =(
Its cool tho. Like, I'm not always serious.
I love being sarcastic cause its a way of mine to quibble on things jocularly.
But it's rather disturbing that some people. Well, quite an amount of people take stuff I said WAYYYYYYYY too seriously. God people, dont you have better things to do in life than to comment on my way of living?
If you dont get me, then stfu. Cause it'll just get me pugnacious.
And it aint pretty.
However, do know that sometimes I mean what I say.
You might be thinking. "This person is real contradicting with her stupid oxymorons"
Hahahahahahha. YES.
I WANT to be taken seriously. But yet, not too seriously.
I Don't want to be taken seriously when I joke. But yet, I wanna be taken seriously when I'm mad.

Whateverbye.

HALT.

2010-06-09T23:48:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the abrupt discontinuation of my previous post.
I dont know why i started it since its halfway through so I just publish it. So shut up.
I think its for the better to not continue with that post since I'm gonna offend alot alot of people.
Maybe I'll do that after I'm out of school so I won't be beaten up in the alley or something.

SO night.

WTFhatever

2010-06-09T23:42:00.004+08:00

Yes. Second post of the day.
Its almost 12 which is tomorrow but whatever you know. Whatever.

I'm not gonna vent out my problems here with a specific person cause
1. I don't do that cause people might get suspicious and make stupid assertions.
(cept the time with the whole bbg tantrum. sorryboutthat. Was stupid and immature back then)
2. I might hurt people feelings with my sarcasm and stuff.
So,sorry.

ANYWAY, I'm gonna switch up the topic to release my anger.
I'm not exactly angry right now but, limited vocab so yea, anger's the only word that's on my mind right now. Don't judge.
So here's the thing,
You know..

Never Say Never

2010-06-09T18:30:00.003+08:00

Gosh, Am I on Fever or WHAT?!
And btw, WHAT is not the answer.
JustinBie Rules. The streets will flow red with the blood of the nonbelievers!
Had a great? day.

Went out to the mall today. Again.
Didnt turn out pretty well.
I KNEW IT!
These things always happen to me.
I'm not the really gregarious person like anyone else.
Guess, I'm just queer.
No biggie.
I love being different.
Different is good.
Right?
YES.

Pretty much explains why I dont do hang outs and stuff..
I'd rather hang out with my cous and be totally crazy, bursting into random singing and dancing in the mall and hoping theres no one behind us. *wink wink

So yea,
Thats just a lil update for today.
CHAO BITCHES.

Lessthanthree you guys. & Justin Boobie.

Meet and Greet.

2010-06-08T19:51:00.007+08:00

Pay no attention to the title.
Couldn't really think of any catchy, fun title. Hence.
Anyway, went shopping with the fam today.
Got my nails painted. Its somewhat similar to hot pink,but its not hot pink. So yea.
Thank motherly lord cause there's nothing much for me to buy.
I spent about 50 bucks? Not too much. So im glad.
And! I saw a lot of people i know there.
Especially my long time best friend, Ve.<33333 miss/love her.
Its so cool that she still remembers me.
Im kinda ashamed myself that i couldnt recognize her. Bad me.
Still, I'm gladd. MajorGratitudePoint2God.

Tomorrow, I'm going to catch a movie with my classmates. Hopefully.
These things really dont go so well in my world.
I'll most probably end up being alienated, humiliated etc.
*Doublecrossyourfingersforme.

So, I have this issue?
I dont really wanna bring it up here.
Might cause alot of commotion. So i'll avoid that.
It has nothing to do with you, whoever's reading this. I swear.

Maybe I should go now?
Watch some tv perhaps?
Have a fun holiday you guys.
Enjoy it while it last cause you cant enjoy no more after the holidays. So yea.
Have fun.

Chaoooooo people.

Whats happenin'

2010-06-06T18:26:00.004+08:00

Kinda bored right now.
So I figured, why not blog a lil bit.
I wouldnt want to do the usual after exam talk about the exam.
Cause Its getting kinda old and seriously, who wants to know about the exam when's its over.
But, i might or might not rant about my results cause i know, fo sure that it's not gonna look good.
We'll see.

Sooooo, I've been on the computer the whole day.
Not very fructuous huh.
Lets talk a lil about, the way i blog, perhaps?

Okay, the way i blog is kinda, weird and real random.
Its always pointless and gibberish.
Even if it has a point, its eventually move out of the point, like theres no specific topic or whatsoever.
And is it weird that i separate every sentence?
Personally, I think its easier to read instead of having everything clump together which kinda adds the dense into the post which makes it appear long and boring.
Though, the style of posting isnt really the point.
Its the contents that matters.
Most of the people i know have the most substantive, intense and real posts.
Like they talk poetically, and are real different from mine.
They practically express their deepest feelings and write sentimentally with amazing descriptions.
Which gets me thinking about mine.
I kinda just blogs. Just like that.
I dont think. It just kinda goes as im typing.
Its more of a conversational type, I may say?
Yea, Im not exactly sure.
Maybe I just, dont really know the gist of true blogging? i dont know.

Anyways, as ya'll know. Last year of school. Yep.
I'm not that worried about the big test. Instead, I'm more concerned about graduation.
About what happens after graduation.
It just came to the time where everyone is fighting for their future. To be successful in live as we all ought to be. To be known and not to be living in mediocracy. You know, it's not much of a choice to WANT to just settle in with a family of 3 and supporting the family with your job as a clerk or a salesman. Or for girls, just, you know, take care of kids and cook and being a typical housewife.
It'll be rather preposterous and laughable if you were to tell people that thats what you want your future to be. No big dreams? Then you'll probably be grouped in the "disposables".
So the competition is tough.
Which gets me antsy about what's going to happen to me.
Will I be living with 9 cats? Can I even afford cat food?
I want to be known, I want to have the ability to provide my family with a better life.
But am i putting an effort into it? No.
Thats the irony of it.
I wanna succeed in life. YET, no ambition. no talents. no nothing.
Yea, way to be successful.
I'm just clueless on what to do. I need a guide. Someone to lead me to what i am suppose to do, and what am i suppose to think.
So if you're that person, Call me. *wink wink.

LOVE,
AMANDA.
I'm fine.

This is me, Back from Paris.

2010-06-05T01:32:00.003+08:00

Okay, I think I almost,kinda,sorta,always start off my post with "Okay" or "So" ?
I dont know..
Anywayyy, I'm back! Not from Paris of course, like duh.
I'm momentarily back on blogging due the lack of stuff to do.
So,how's everyone? Great? Great.
Enough about you.
So My life has been preettyy..ugly.
So today's the last day of school. Fun.
Andddddddddd.
I have nothing to say.
Kinda tired.
Eyes cant stay open and its all red and itchy. Yea, you so dont wanna know how i look right now.
DONT! Even imagine.
So I'll end this lil post right here.
Just a quick update to tell you guys that I'm back and stuff. *not like anyone cares.
So yea,
Bye bye peeps.

LUVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV. Amanda.

Goodbye.

2010-03-28T20:46:00.014+08:00

Hey everyone,

So I got a kinda bad news today.
Yeah, so before i get started,
I'll do an Ins and Outs for this one last time.

Ins

Reading
Lactose
Saving
Skincare
Workouts
Lala (I'll try my best)
Studies
Pet Society
Keeping my room clean
Alienation
Twitter

Outs
Caring
Easily attracted
Being nocturnal/vigil
Doing stuff at the very last minute
English period
Bad results
Trying to please snotty people
Strangers
Texting (ps.limited phonebill)
Falling sick
Blogspot

So yeah, I think thats pretty much it.
And yep, you thought right.
I AM official quitting blogspot, until further notice.
Why?
Cause, its sorta a personal issue of mine so..yeah..
I'll definitely miss my blog.
Cause i have it since like..im 13? idk but its the best place to express besides twitter.
And yeah, if you still wanna you know..know whats going on in my life, follow me on twitter.
Or formspring. Or not.
And no, i'm not quitting to focus on my studies,
Its kinda me and my solecistic insecurities.
I'm not trying to make a big deal out of it but this is my final decision.
But I wont delete my account tho.
I'll probably come back after a couple of years,
After I get some language classes
And who knows, maybe by that time I'll be probably ranting on my same boring ol job for 15 years or my argument with my husband just because he forgot the put down the toilet bowl seat or whatever grown ups like to talk about.
So....i guess this is it?
Bye. I'll miss you guys.

Yours Truly,
Amanda.

A lil update

2010-03-17T23:09:00.001+08:00

So..its still the holidays..obviously.
And i've been sprawling on the bed watching tv on practically every single day.
And yea..I havent done my homework yet. Been pretty lethargic nowadays.
I think i've been infected with the lazy bug or something. Which is bad.
It's so not me.
The old me used to finish up my homework asap.
I miss me.
Oh well..

Anyway..
I've been kinda thinking lately..yeah I THINK.
I think this might sound stupid.
I'm kinda..trying to NOT be so close with my friends..
I know everyone wants to spend more time with their friends..
Bond...chat...hang out...
You know..to "cherish" the time they have together..
As for me, i know i could be quite grotesque cause I'm trying to sorta..avoid? Is that the word?
Avoid my friends..so separation would be easy. Just like that. *snap fingers
It'll probably be better like that, no broken hearts, no nothing..
So it means more Loner time for me! Yay.

Okay, besides, wait..that sounded so formal.
Whatever. I STILL need to improve my vocab.
Any ideas?
I'm really in to the whole "Word of the Day" gig.
So i hope that helped.
Theres like "Words of the month" note on my desktop.
Theres like "Word of the Day" screen saver.
"Word of the day" on my dictionary.
And "Word of the day" on my twitter.
Tho it doesnt help much.
One look at it and i'll forget it after a few seconds.

And i'm planning to you know.read more story books?
Its not really working cause i've been "planning" yea.."planning" to do it ever since.
But a few pages of the book and i'll go *yawn.
Not fun. At all.
I'm not a book reading kinda person.
I'll just feign an accuse to like..goof off.

So yea..
I need help. And Alot of it.
So gimme some tips if you're willing to help. I guess.

btw, sometimes i wonder who am i talking to when i'm blogging.
Its like no one actually reads it.
And i'm like.."hey guys", "bye guys", "sorry guys"
WHO ARE "GUYS" ANYWAY?
I feel so silly right now.
But oh well.
Bye guys!
Love,
A<3

My thoughts on the beginning of the year. 2010.

2010-03-15T20:34:00.006+08:00

So its March now. of 2010. of course.
Which means its my last year here in school aka. hell. or worst.
So I'm gonna share some of my thoughts for the past 3 months or somewhat a combination throughout all the years in high school.
So brace yourself for extreme pessimism and welcome to a perspective from a loser.
Well, obviously, I AM a loser at school. No doubt.
I dont think i am a nerd nor a geek cause they are sorta..well known if they play a bunch of computer games or study smart.
I'm neither of it. so I'm grouped way below the popularity chart.
Like the lowest of the low as you like to call it.
I dont really want to..you know..suck up to popular people to gain popularity.
Thats kinda..disgusting to me.
I DO do stuff for them if they asked me too.
Thats just because i dont want them to you know..hate me..or like..gossip about me or use me and then dumped me at some point.
You know..the usual.
But i do try to keep my distance from popular people..dont wanna get into cliques and shit.
I'm just you know..boring old invisible person who no one barely even knows if i existed.
So i'm now trying to back away from any popular people.
I just want someone who actually..you know..treats me like a friend in class.
I know i know..you're probably thinking..
"Who are you to ask for a friend..like..get a mirror! No one wants to even talk to you"
But...
I just hope to have someone to put me first..
Like I dont need to worry when teacher gives us group assignments .
I dont need to go around, worrying that i might be the last person who doesnt have a group
And the teacher needs to place me in a group of people who are giving me the side look when i pull up a chair next to them.
So not wanting that to happen.
Thats why i need a friend to be like..."oh an assignment!" and he/she'll come right up to me and asks me when should we start.

Anyway..
Sometimes, i just dont know what did i do wrong to be such a loser.
Maybe i'm too..odd? or too quiet?
Must i stomp my feet whenever i dont know the answers to a certain question?
Must i scream and whine at the top of my lungs to get attention?
Or i should be all..cute and act like i dont know everything and rubbing other people's shoes?
example: Oh gosh, you ARE so smart to solve this problem for me, I didnt know 1+1 is 2. It was like..so HARD. *giggles.
Or maybe i should boss people around and be snotty and stuff.
Comment and tell me which will work.

Reading through the post,
I realized the post doesnt relate to the title much.
But this is how i feel this year.
Wait no,
This has been in my since forever.
But it kinda occurred to me even more this year.
So yea..

If i were to continue with this,
its gonna make me sound..even more of a loser and desperate.
So i guess this is where i should stop.
Albeit being such a loser,
I'm still thankful to those that actually cares.
And that you even take out the time to read my blog.
Thanks.
Sorry if i DID offend anyone that i kinda used as examples.
Love you guys.
kthanksbye.

7 Random Facts

2010-03-12T21:17:00.014+08:00

So..My blog posts are getting kinda boring so figured i should do something different. A tag.
So heres 7 random facts about me.

1. hmm..I like to listen to music during showers. Its fun! And i lip sync to them with like..acting like i know how to sing and stuff. mm-hmm.
And yes, i bring my phone into the shower with me. But i place it at the very end of the tub
so it wont get wet.

2. I have a sick obsession with the amazing amalgamation of apples and peanut butter. Its
actually a really healthy snack. Loads of magazines recommend them. Try it!

3. I'm pretty easily attracted to cute guys. Like not being all slutty and stuff.. They
just make me smile. That sounded horny. But i dont mean it like i wanna do him
or anything. Thats like..uncool. And i'm not that cheap.

4. And I hate hate hate it when my hair's wet. I DO wash my hair every single
day. But i dried them immediately. And i'll totally snap at you if you try to
touch my wet hair. Its like..uncomfortable. Yea, i'm weird.

5. okay this might sound weird but i'm really picky on the type of towels i
use. I need it to be soft and dry AT ALL TIMES!

6. I'm kinda um..how should i put this..really..compulsive about
keeping my nails short. I cut em once a week. And i cant stand
see other people with long nails, especially boys. Like the whole
impression that i have on you will be ruined if i saw you have
long nails and whats wrong then not grooming it. UGH.

7. I kinda..like to pick up how people talk. Like if i'm watching
a show with bitches and sluts and stuff..i'll start talking and
behaving like one. Its uncontrollable.

So yea. These are random facts about me. most of it sounds like i'm like..the MONK of something..but whatever. I'm weird and I'm proud of it.

So i'm going to taggg..

Nicole
Marcus
And umm..
Miss Jeanie
Looking forward to read about the random facts about you guys! Love you lots.

Love, Amanda.

HOLLA-DAY!

2010-03-12T14:10:00.003+08:00

this is live from me on the first day of my one week school holiday!
it sure sounds like its a big thing!
its like i get to rest from all the craps from school!
And i get to dress up and be all girly and stuff.
I was planning on doing this whole recap on every subject..
But it sounds kinda boring huh?
So lets just move on to something more..interesting.
On the up side!
ECLIPSE's trailer is officially here!
Lets all scream our heads off!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
and tomorrow's the day where im getting my room renovated!
Super excited.
I'm planning on doing a room tour thing.
I dont know
I'll keep you posted on the progress.
So chao.
I gotta go pack and rearrange stuff!
Happy holidays bitches!!!

Love you all!

Quickie

2010-02-28T14:41:00.005+08:00

Hey guys,
So heres a little quick update cause i might not be able to online for the next 2 weeks.
Cause you know, the exam's here. In 1 day's time.
Doomsville here i come!

As you all know, i'm the last minute no wait, the last second person.
Which means i dont study until the day before the exam.
Yeah, so that explains why i'm here, blogging.

I promised myself not to on my comp or even go near it until after the exam.
And GUESS WHAT I'M DOING NOW?!
God do i hate myself or what.
And no.thats not a question.

I really gotta brush up on my studies.
I need to start working on my vocab.
Any ideas how?
I do check the dictionary when i come across unfamiliar words.
But by the end of the day, i cant remember any of it.

And i cant even concentrate on my studies.
I'd just stare at the same page for hours and not learn anything from it.
Yea, thats how i "study"
And i dont know why people even want study tips from ME.
I like..stink at studying.
And for the last time, quick doubting me when i said i'm not studying.
If you dont believe what i said then whats the point of even asking me.
Jeesus.
If you dont wanna piss me off, then stop doing that.
Its uncool you guys, uncool.
You guys could doubt me in your hearts but dont say it out loud okay?
Cause i cant control what you wanna think of me.

And guess what?
I dont pay attention in class either.
I dont really finishes my homework.
I dont do revision every single day and every single minute.
I slack off.
I copy some of my homework.
I eat.
I sleep late.
I am not on a diet.
I spend alot of time on useless stuff.
I lie.
I swear. sometimes.
I am not smart.

Just wanna make things clear.
So if you'll excuse me,
I gotta go stare at books until the night falls.
Chao dolls!
Amanda. <3

formspring.me

2010-02-23T16:00:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/amandascullen

Formspring

2010-02-22T19:58:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.
Just signed up for formspring.
What is the so called formspring that you're talking about? you ask.
Why, its a thing. That you can ask me practically any questions.
REALLY!
And the best part is, you can ask it anonymously.
Which means.
I won't know who the hell are you.
And I wont hate you for asking me that cause, i dont know who you are!
AWESUM! Right?
So ask away!
http://www.formspring.me/amandascullen
And its you're too lazy to go the site.
Theres an application right to your right.
Scroll it down and theres a lil box below the peace *smiley face picture.
Yeah, thats right. There.
You can just type in any question you want there and i'll try to answer it. TRY.

So Peace Gees! <3

Hey.

2010-02-19T00:13:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.
Third post in a day.
Awesome huh?
Anyway,
I've changed my layout. Yes, again.
I wasnt really satisfied at the previous one.
So i hope this one is better.
kthanksbye.

Turns out Unicorn's poops are marshmallows.

Too good to be forgotten

2010-02-17T21:47:00.007+08:00

I'm so going to blog up this dream of mine to prevent myself from forgetting it.
Yep. It might sound crazayy but its important to me.
Warning:
This whole dream's gonna sound like a drama that only happens on tv.
I might sound old in my dream not like old people old. Like old-DER.

Okay so here goes:
I'm gonna start somewhere in the middle cause i cant remember the whole thing.
I was like..married to Edward. YES! EDWARD!
And then we were like living a happy life and all.
Then suddenly Edward brought a kid back.
I dont know why but i took care of the kid.
And after some time i think, a woman that lives across the street came and claimed that the kid is hers. And its Edward's too.
And shockingly I cried and Edward just silently left with her.
BTW the kid is like 2 or 3 i think.
Okay then,
I stood there and saw them living their live there.
Its was torturous.
And btw. Edward was wearing the outfit where the cullens met the Quileutes flashback in the movie. You know..the one with the oldies hat and stuff.
Yep.Weird~ I cant see how i look like in the dream cause it was shown in my perspective so i cant actually see myself.
Okay, moving on.
Then suddenly theres some thing going on, i dont know whether its a good thing or a bad thing but its like some kind of ceremony.
Then me and my family were discussing stuff but i was numb.
And it was rainy.
Then Edward came over.
And i begged him to come back and i touched his face.
SERIOUSLY! I DID!
And i saw him in details. His facade. His eyes. EVERYTHING.
Except he doesnt sparkle cause it was rainy and it was night time.
But he pushed me away and left again.
Then i was in despair.
And i was telling myself that every guy in the world does that.
They will never be true.
And then i came to my senses that Edward WILL NEVER do that.
He's just taking care of the poor woman.
*FYI. I read back, and the whole thing sounds cliche. But thats what i dreamt of so..thats what i wrote.
Anyway,
Theres one scene where there a nerd living next door, he wears an orange tee with a huge glasses.
And i remembered Harper, you know..from Wizard of waverly place, Alex's best friend?
Yea..Harper's MY best friend in my dream.
And she cant come in my house cause its too crowded.
So she went in thru the neighbor's house, aka, the nerd's.
And the nerd followed her around.
And Harper got annoyed by him.
And i can picture them being together in the end.
Then,
I'm not sure whats happening but everyone on the neighborhood came to my house.
And Edward too.
And he didnt even bother to look at me.
It hurts.
Then when i got the chance, i pulled him to the corner and asked him something i think.
And he told me he's just doing this for the poor woman cause somehow he feel that he needs to.
And that he'll come back to me after some time.
Okay then i woke up by a phone call.
I know, Edward sound like a bad guy in my dream.
But THE POINT IS!
I get to touch him and talk to him.
Thats way beyond my sweet dream goal.
Its like..like..a beautiful nightmare or something. (got it from Sweet Dreams-Beyonce)
The dream was last last night's.

And last night,
I dreamt that school started and my classmate told me i got uglier cause i got zits.
I know. WEIRD! And i was freaking out at school and keep wanting to go home ASAP for a facial. And i saw my friends and stuff and things went on like any normal day at school.
LMAO.
Thats the whole dream.

Yea, you're probably thinking that i'm a freak and all.
But I dream alot. And by alot i mean ALOT.
Some are interesting and some made me cry.
Like one time i dreamt that nicole, you know she's my life right?
Yeah, we were being chased or something and we climbed out the window/door thingy. And the whole place was exposed outside. And we were on a very tall building.
And theres only a small step that i can stand on.
And when i helped nicole out.
She slipped and she fell down the building.
I was looking at her, helpless.
I was yelling but no sound came out and then i cried.
You can imagine how when you look helplessly when someone you love is dying..like falling down the building, thru the clouds.
And i woke up crying.
That was horrible.

Oh wow,
Look at the time.
I've used an hour for this post.
This shows how dedicated i am.
So you better appreciate it!

Okay then.
Bye peeps.
You know i love you,
Amandaxoxo.

Emotionalism

2010-02-07T21:26:00.002+08:00

Hey people.
Ever got the i'm-so-sick-of-it feeling when people keep asking the same question for the past 9 years of your life?
You know..
For instance,
"Why are your eye slanting apart and you kinda look like a retard?"
"..Um.I dont know"
"No offense though"
"Oh okay, I'm not offended *fake smile" *totally offended

Imagine people asking that for the consecutive 9 fucking years.
And imagine the people you'll meet in 9 years that asked the same question.
And imagine the times that you'll get offended but pretended like you didn't.
There WILL be a limit to it.
And this time, i finally cracked.

I mean seriously, HOW DO I KNOW if i'm born with those flaws?
Its not like i asked for it.
AND I'M NOT ON A FUCKING DIET!
AND Sheesh! I DO NOT HAVE ANOREXIA.

Oh and people who tries to, you know. comfort me ?
Its okay when you say 'oh you're not "weird"'
And its not when people say 'You look great! I want to look like you!'
I'm not that much of a dope to actually think its a compliment.

Now i've officially lost my self esteem.
I'm so disgusted at myself.
UTTERLY DISGUSTED.
I don't really look at the mirror anymore.
I don't sing to songs cause then i might hear my voice.
I don't even want to talk cause i might hear my voice too.
I just wanna bury myself in a hole and wait for the sand or soil or whatever to slowly infuse into me.
I just feel numb.
Not like bella's "i-just-lost-my-vampire-boyfriend "numb
Its the "i'm-so-self-conscious-that-i'm-numb"numb
So now,
Should I bring a paper bag with eye holes to school tomorrow?

HEYA!

2010-02-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

Sup peeps.
I'm being awfully bubbly today.
I dont know why i am since i sucked eggnogs on my oral assessment today.
And yeah. Oral is OH-FFICIALLY over.
Well, thats one less thing worry about.
Up next, the EXAM! *ten ten ten!
Okay, that was dramatic.

I need to catch up on my blogging since SOMEONE is starting to catch up.
Isnt it weird that i used catch up twice?
Sorry, couldnt think of another word at this moment.

I'm am SO looking forward for the New Year, the Chinese way.
But we're not celebrating much this year tho.
Cause grandma said that its too "troubling"
Oh excuses..
I am excited to see Shane and Scott again.
Even though they can be the pain in the butt like. most of the time. *Shane especially.
Scott's just being an angel.
He's like sweetest little thing.
Okay, he's not little anymore.
Anyway. I had to say. I did miss them.
And you know you're always in my miss list! Jing!
Its only been a week and i miss you like crazy.
I think i'm being a lesbo.
Okay, just kidding.
I'm a guy lover okay.
Can't wait to go shopping with jing. *sorry for the girly-ness in today's post.
But Jing just gives me the best advices on stuff..
And i ABSOLUTELY LOVE! her fashion sense.
I seriously DO NOT know what to do without you!
Okay. is it annoying that i'm being a total girly girl right now?
I apologize for that.
I'm a girl after all. Like DUH!

Reading back.
This post is really really, I mean REALLY..meaningless.
Oh well, at least i updated, right?

Lots of love,
Amanda<3

I'm lost.

2010-02-03T21:28:00.002+08:00

I feel so lost and insecure. (sounds like some lyrics from some song. idk.)
I was gonna describe something like lost in the ocean, without a lifesaver and crap.
But i decided not to cause its kinda cheesy to say.
Who am i kidding, i dont even know how.
I dont know why sometimes i take stuff people say so seriously,
even though some are not meant for me, I'll still think that its me.
I'll be like "OMG! HE hates me!"
Ridiculous, right?
But thats what i do.
I tend to get really depressed over the littlest things.
Like...
Like...
Like....
Okay i'm not gonna say it out here.
Its rather private. LIKE REEAL PRIVATE.
Dont ask.

Damn, i have so much flaws.
Just name one good thing about me.
Come on..
SEE! I knew theres nothing.
I knew it all along.
I'm not smart, and not to talk about looks.
I'm not talented, theres nothing i'm good at.
I'm no where near fun.
Thats why i'm grouped in the "losers" zone.
I can face the fact, really i can.
But sometimes when i really put some thought into it.
I'll get really...how should i put this..emo?
But its just for a sec though, no worries.
But seriously, WHY am i being such a loser?!
I dont know what to do with my life.
SOMEONE GIMME DIRECTIONS!
Get a freaking light and guide me out of the freaking pit of darkness or whatever!

And why are people keep asking me about..boys?
Do you guys really believe that i have a boyfriend?
I DONT OKAY!
Based on what i am, who likes a loser like me? I mean, seriously?!
OH PHOOEY!
Plus, i dont really have my eye on anybody..well, at least i think i dont.
I THINK.
Awkward~
Cause i dont usually talk about relationships stuff here, right?

Okay, moving on.
Aww~I just got a comment.
Some people can be such a sweetheart.
Thanks a bunch.

Okay, moving on. Again.
I seriously, deeply, truly, think i'm going to flunk my exam this year.
I'm practically falling asleep in every class i'm in.
Not paying attention even.
And not doing my homework.
What am i doing?!
WAKE UP! *shakes shoulders

Now all i can say is. Three words.
U-G-H

Q.U

2010-02-01T21:13:00.002+08:00

So I'm gonna give you guys a quick update since i havent updated my blog since like..1978?
Okay, first lets talk a lil bit about school.
School WAS NOT FUN. AT ALL.
I'm always feeling lethargic to get my butt up from the bed.
Its like, i just need another second and the next thing i know..i'm like 10 minutes late.
And then theres the heater. I hate it when theres no warm water for shower.
I can't get in the shower with cold water. I'll die. Literally.
Then i have to wait for my maid to boil a pot of water for me.
And thats a freaking waste of time.
And then i have to rush like a maniac and get to school.
And when i'm in school, i have to rush on my unfinished homework, which leads me to not paying any attention to the teacher.
Which means, i've learned nothing in school.
So tell me, whats the point of going to school in the first place?
And should i remind you that i'm like, one of the losers in school so that doesnt add on the fun point which equals to zero fun in school. ZERO.

Okay, i changed my mind. I'm gonna blab about school on the whole post.
Cause its the only place that i hate so much that i want to tell you all about it.
It makes no sense but, oh what the heck.

Guess what?
We are having our oral assessment done tomorrow, i think.
We're got the theme "dull and boring" picked out.
No acting. No knock-knock jokes. No accents. No smile. No nothing.
The typical losers' team. (no offense to my team mates) (mostly i'm referring to myself tho)
I just wanna get this over with and move on with my life.

OKAY! I. OFFICIALLY. HAVE. NOTHING. TO. TALK. ABOUT.
I'm just trying to drag this post longer to make it seems like i've put a lot of effort and time on it.

So lets sum it up to.

"Good luck on Valentine's Day. If you got rejected. Face it. Its either you dont look good enough, or you need a better face. GOOD LUCK TO LOVEBIRDS OUT THERE. I'm gonna be watching far from the outside, behind the windows, past the fences, out the street, on the other town. "

-Best regards from amanda, truly wishing you guys to be happy even if you dont get dates <3

OMFG

2010-01-15T16:29:00.001+08:00

oh my god.
I can't even believe my eyes..
I look back at all those posts i posted like a gazillion years ago.
And i didnt know i used like DIALECTS!
Seriously!
OH MY GOD
I deleted most of them if you don't mind.
Cause its humiliating!

Mood Swings. It ain't pretty.

2010-01-15T16:04:00.003+08:00

Hello people.
Its been like..2 weeks since school started..
And yes. I survived it. No joke.
School's been okay for me.
But it doesnt mean i like it.
I still hate you, school.
Anyway..I've been having these annoying mood swings lately.
I'm irascible to the extreme. EXTREME!
Like, I cant even talk to my sister without yelling at them..
I do pity them but i'm too petulant.
What has gotten in to me?!
Maybe i need a psychiatrist..major mental illness going on here!

And school has gone ballistic with homework..homework..homework..
Its so much, it made me crazy!
Can't teachers be considerate? or at least have a heart!
Its not that hard to cut us some slack.
Seriously! GIVE IT A REST!
JEEZ!

I'm too furious to continue posting..
SEE! I've done it again..
I've gone mad for no reason..
Oh just bye people. bye.

Thanks for supporting my blog even though its just random rants and craps. I really do appreciate it. <3

D.E.A.T.H

2010-01-03T15:30:00.002+08:00

Waddup peeps.
So..Its Sunday today. WHICH also means DEATH! WHICH also means School is starting like TOMORROW!
May death fall upon us..something something..
I'm trying to sound poetic but i cant..sorry

ANYhoo..
I bathed Brownie!
I havent done that in ages..
I know..i know..irresponsible..inconsiderate..whatev..
At least I did it now!
And I packed my bag...
So basically, i'm ready for school!
But not mentally!
I'm like freaking out at the thought of school.
I have no idea why but its just the way it is.
And this is the only year that i'm making such a big deal out of school..
I'm afraid of bitches!
I mean..seriously..*mega cringe!
I can be quite a pessimist sometimes..OKAY..I'm always pessimistic.
Ever noticed how weird it is when its the holidays. I hoped for school. When its school. I prayed for the holidays. Contradictions!

Seriously, I have nothing to say now.
My mind is like.."school! Bitches! Teachers! Did i forget something! Blah!"
So i apologize for the creepy meaningless blog post.

BYEBYE GUYS!
Hope everything turns out okay on the first day!

2010

2010-01-02T00:35:00.002+08:00

Hey, sorry for being pretty M.I.A lately.
And happy new year btw.
Its officially 2010. 2 more years to total earth destruction!
And in case you didnt notice.
School is going to start in 1 day's time.
The horror!
Okay. Nuff said about school.

If you can see I've changed my blogger layout.
And i may keep this for a long time cause i'm too lazy to change it frequently.
So deal with it.
Okay bye!
Love ya!

This aint a fairytale

2009-12-14T21:40:00.002+08:00

The holiday is almost ending
And hello school and the big test
Its all coming too fast..
I was the 13 year old on her first day to school..
Trying to be accepted..not hoping to be the popular kid or anything..
And in a blink of an eye..
In one year's time I'm graduating
Is that fast or what?!

I dont know what i'm gonna do after graduation..
What course to take?
Where to go?
What to do?
What to eat?
So much to think...
And fyi..i'm not much of a thinker..
So you can imagine how hard it is for me..
Most probably i'll just let it be and maybe beg on the street or something..
Its not like i'll waste years and years of time on school and losing my pride or anything..

OH who am i kidding!
I can't beg on the street..
I dont want to!
I dont want to disappoint my family..
I dont want to be the one to hold my hands up and beg!
And i definately dont want to be someone my sisters cant look up to..

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Okay...now i'm out of things to say..
oh ya..the thing i'd said about you know...
renovating my blog?
Sorry its taking so long..
I'm not home most of the time..
I'll try to finish it or something..
Frankly, i'm just plain ol' lazy..
sorry guys..

LDOS!

2009-11-20T16:49:00.004+08:00

it stands for LAST DAY OF SCHOOL !
Its the last day of school of the year 2-oh-oh-nine!
SO LONG SUCKERS!
LOL..
Just kidding..
Seriously..I'll miss all of you guys..
This is probably the best teenage year i had..
Really...
At least i made more friends..
Found more bffs...
Met more bitches..
Compared with the last few years..I was a like..the invisible gurl or whatever they call me behind my back..oh wait! they can't see me!

LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE! you guys!!!
*hugs..
*cries..
SO LONG!
painted my nails btw...
Tomorrow is ma bday!
SWEET SIXTEEN!!
1111111111111116666666666!!!!!!!!!!
9999999999911111111111111!!!!!!!!!!

LovevevevvevevevPeacececececce

Still waiting;

2009-11-20T16:35:00.004+08:00

GRR...my aunt still not here to pick us up.
From school i'm waitin impatiently to get home..
At home i'm waitin impatiently to get out..

Anyway..VLOG IS TONIGHT! Woo~~
Can't wait for it...
I thought of so much to say..
Hope i dont look fugly on cam?

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Last night was my grandpa's bday party..
Tomorrow is mine!..
Wait..thats not the point..
So I went to gran's party and i just throw on a romper and people wear like..woah..hehe..
Maybe wearing romper suits me better..
( was gunna wear it for my bday party but then...changed my mind)
AND GUESS WHAT!
I got loads of compliment INCLUDING!!! I've got fat!
Best compliment yet!
ALways wanted to be fat.

PEACE!
Luv: AMANDA

p.s cant really see my bad hair here...had a bad hair day yesterday...

Bio-logically Awesome

2009-11-11T14:25:00.002+08:00

Quick update on my first day of the finals..
Today was biology and malay..
Don't even wanna talk about malay!
I totally have no idea what to write and i saw everyone around writing like they're never out of ideas...
CRAZY!
Anyhoo..
Biology was kinda hard for me..
But!
According to MY calculations, I got 24 out of 30 in the objective section!
Okay..some of you guys might think "are you kidding me?! 6 wrongs?! I would cry my eyes out and jump down the building!"
Well..EXCUSE ME if I'm no Jimmy Neutron..

Next stop..
Chemistry!
My worst subject yet!
Wish me luck!

Surprise!

2009-11-05T14:47:00.003+08:00

Hey guys..
Surprised to see me blogging?
The exam is in like..1..2...3...5 days for the love of god and I'm still slacking off..
I don't get why i'm such a moron..
I waste most of my time thinking about the holiday..when the exam is coming!
Holiday....sleep...not doing anything....shopping....*sighhhh...
SEE ! I did it again...
Just hope that the exam comes easy and go easy?

Anyhoo..Good luck everyone!
God bless!

PS. Still Alive..

2009-10-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

Okay...
So some people have complains about my "unlively" blog?
Like I've said..
I need to stop my random ranting for a while..
And concentrate on my studies which..seems to be not working..
Study?
So did not did that..okay..maybe a little..its soo little..it didnt even make sense..
And no..that statement above did not make any sense..
I don't get why I can't study like any other people do..
Imma gangster!
I feel like saying that..so what the heck..

Anywayz..back to the P to the O to the I to the N to the T
I don't get it..
Why are people lying about not studying? Oh for the love of god..what will happen if you just admit it?
And because of all this i-havent-study-lies frenzy..
People doubt me when I told them I didn't..
Seriously people..
If you really know me well..
You'll know that I'm a last minute person..
So quit doubting me!

And I'm gonna have a massive blog renovation after the all-so-horrible exam.
I'm kinda looking forward to putting up cute icons and some pics or some weird lil' quotes..
I don't know..we'll see..
If i can do all those cool effects that is..

Hmm..
What should I say next?
Tomorrow's gonna be a busy busy day for me..
I think..
Tuition for 3 hours..
*sighhh..
Hell..

Well..
wait! Hell, well..Oh goodie it rhymes!
Sorry..me and my cous got this whole issue with rhymy words..
Speaking of cous..Miss you so much even though we meet every week..
School was like torture..
I'm practically being bore to death everytime..
If I have a choice next year..I wanna stay away from the front rows..
But i don't think it'll work cause imma shortie and teacher probably will cast me to the front..
Hey! I'm not that short! Am i?

I've think of so much to write at school..
And now that I here..
Everything poofs away just like that..

Help me pick..
a. Study b. Waste my time away c. none of the above
study? waste time? study? waste time? what to do?

Lemmi tell you guys what i have in mind for the holiday..
First! My birthday....gathering?
I wouldn't say its a party cause it might end up with no one there..
Anyhoo..At least I know my bffs won't bail me out right?
Hope it won't be as boring as school or even worst..
Cause I'm a total party pooper..even on my own..
Next! Trip to KL.
I wanna buy clothes and everything there..
Its boring here..not much options..
Still..I need $$ to shop till I drop..
So..Next!
I need to get mahself a job..
Wonder if anyone out there will hire me..
It'll be their honour to have me to mess up the clothers..or trip over the wires..or knock down a bookshelf..
Wonderful!
I can see it..the sight..*ugh..Okay! DO NOT imagine it..Its a bad image..
Okay okay..
Continue!

Okay!
End of Story!
=.=

That crazy chick doesn't know who she's messing with..

XOXO <3

Amanda.Buahaha.

UpdateS

2009-10-01T21:12:00.005+08:00

Sorry guys..
This probably will be my last post till after the exam..
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Urh..guess what! My exam position dropped! AGAIN!
Isn't it amazing?!...
I freakishly forgot what I was suppose to say cause I got frustrated just now..
And when I get frustrated..I'll get really angry..and when I get really angry..
I tend to moan..And when I'm moaning..I'll think of stuff to moan and forgot what I was suppose to say..so yea...

Next..I think I won't be online-ing so much now..
Cause I don't wanna get anymore dark circles..
But I'm not so sure on this..
Cause I don't think I can stand not touching my comp for a day..
I'll try though..
So..don't pressure me..

Wtf is wrong with the internet these days..
Everything is not working!

The good news is..
......
I think I'm not tellin' you guys just yet..

Oh ya..
I'm officially tellin' you guys I have twitter..
Here goes..
"hey, I have twitter!"

Anywayz..I've been obsessed with the peace sign lately..
Don't know why I'm attracted to it.
In case you don't know..
Its not the peace sign with the fingers and stuff..
Its the other one..
The round one?
Kinda like a steerling-wheel
yea...that..
I'm on a hunt for its necklace..
Wish me luck!

Oh goodie..
The connections are down again!
~=.=~

And..
Um..
Urh...
Hmm...
Hi!
ZzZ

Sorry..
I seriously forgotten my script..
Okay..maybe I don't have a script..
I forgot what I was suppose to say..

Maybe I'll post it up later when I remember it..
or never...

Okie!
Bye!!

Peace! ♥ Cookies!

Tweet me! @AmandaSCullen

Um..Untitled?

2009-09-26T00:48:00.003+08:00

'I hopped off the plane at LAX with a dream and my cardigan welcome to the land of fame excess am i gonna fit in jumped in the cab, here i am for the first time look to my right and i see the hollywood sign this is all so crazy everybody seems so famous my tummys turnin and im feelin kinda home sick too much pressure and im nervous, cause when the taxi man turned on the radio and a Jay Z song was on and the Jay Z song was on..'

man, I'm so obsessed with this song..
But as much as I l-o-v-e this so..
The music video is not quite what I've been expecting..
Anywayz..
I'm so utterly bored right now..
Oh ya..I'm always bored..
Being bored is kinda like my thing..
I've been staring at my comp for like..an hour now!?
I'm practically alone in this house..
Parents went for their Friday Night Party..
Sisters went to Butterworth without me..
Some so-called sisters..
******
Its SO god damn boring here..
I'm kinda freaked out by the movie I've watched..
So I kinda, sort of trying to avoid looking at mirrors..
I know I'm a total scaredy cat..
Deal with it..
And I'm too fed up with my homework..
I think I've done enough for today..
Still tons to go tomorrow..
*******
Ugh..Isn't there like any new songs lately?
I've been listening to the same song over and over and over and over again..
And I'm pretty sick about it..
*******
Great! Dad is back..
Sorry for the boring blog..
I was trying to stall time..
Oh ya..one last thing..
About my novel..
Sorry for not updating for a friggin' long time..
I've been busy?
Okay..I've been lazy..
And pretty much out of ideas..
I'll try to update once I get to conquer my laziness..
Yea..Like thats gonna happen..
Anyway..I'll try..
I'm really sorry..
I don't think anyone actually read those anywayz..
So I'm probably apologizing to myself..
Lame-o..zz

So Bye Guys!
Luv ya'!
xoxoA

p.s totally lurving my lucas till cursor..
kinda cheesy..hehe..

cleanin' day

2009-09-21T18:57:00.004+08:00

wow..I'm sooo exhausted from all this cleaning..
It was like the most cleaning I've done in years..
I cleaned my accessories..
I cleaned my bathroom..well..not me actually..i asked someone to help me clean..I just put in my stuff..
I cleaned my closet..
And let me tell you..it was tiring!

Why am I cleaning suddenly?
Because..I'm planning to move my stuff into my room..
You see..my stuff was all in my mum's room or in the other room which is filled with me and my sis's clothes..
And my room..here..is empty..
I only do homework and use the computer here..
And my clothes are flooding out of the closet me and sis shares..so I wanna move it all to my room..

So theres 3 big closet in my room..I gave each of my sis one to put their stuff..
And I decided to take back 1 of it to put my clothes..
And when I was about to move my clothes in..
I opened my sis's closet..IT WAS LIKE DISASTER!
I was like..did a hurricane came in here or what?!
There was like stickers everywhere!!
And it won't come off..
And marker drawings on the drawer and stuff like that..
It was like a total cave drawing inside..

Thank god I'm not in a bad mood today..or my sisters are gonna get it..
I just asked them to help peel off the stickers..
And I started wiping the whole damn closet..
And finally..now it's done..
And my nails are all ruined..thanks to all the stickers peeling..

Now..I have to go clean out my clothes and maybe give some to charity..or maybe to my sis..
So toodles!
XoXo

Warning to everyone out there...DON'T let your 5 year old sis get hold of her own closet..cause it might be full of hannah montana and disney princesses stickers the next time you check..you've been warned..
anyhoo..bye~!

Teachers on the Lose

2009-09-15T20:05:00.002+08:00

Teachers are on total madness these days..
Giving us THAT much homework..
Seriously..they need to get a life..even if they don't wanna get one..we still need one..
I mean..how are we suppose to finish so much homework in a day?
And we need some alone time after school..
Its like..school at school and school at home..
I know that doesn't make sense..nothing does..
Arghh..don't get me started on homework during the holidays..
Gotta go now..cause theres tons of homework waiting for me..

Peace!
ASC

New skin!!!!! again..

2009-08-30T23:31:00.002+08:00

Hey..I got bored and eventually changed my layout...again..
Sheesh..sorry if I have loads of time to waste...
I know..this skin might not be that pretty or whatsoever you want it to be..
Cause I'm way to lazy to use hours and hours to find a PERFECT skin..
I might change it some other day anywayz..
So..get used to it or don't at all..

Oddness!

2009-08-23T22:51:00.003+08:00

I'm having this quirky feeling right now..
I don't know why..
I just do..
ANYwayz..
Exam is finally OH-VEE-EE-R!
Okay..I might be a little late for the yay-exam-is-over update..
Cause I finally conquered my online addiction a while back..
Thanks to...*drum rolls.....THE EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know..I know..Don't worry..This addiction will be back..anytime..
So don't worry about not seeing me online..
Online its like the only thing I do at home..other than being bored to death..
So yeah..

I'm having this really weird feeling..
Its kinda a mixture of anxiety, boredness, anger, sad and all those...
I hate having this feeling..nono..feelingS..with the S...
So much dilemma these few days...
I made lots of deep thinking lately..
Deep deep thinking..

Kinda like.."hey..what to eat later.." or "hey..I'm thinking of dying..how 'bout you?"
Okay..I'm just kidding..isn't it funny..me..joking..deep thinking...hahaha..ha...h..a...
FINE! I know its not funny..you don't have to pretend to care!

Okay..back to the main topic..
What was the main topic?
Oh-ya..I'm wearing glasses now..
Cause PEOPLE say I need to let my eyes breathe..yeah like my eyes can breathe..where's their nose? huh?! Think I'm what..A 3-year-old? I'm like..a zillion years older than that!
I even can go to the potty all by myself for god's sake..

I really wanna do something fun..something extraordinary..something...that don't bores me..
Playing guitar is fun..but its not that fun..except when I can like..play like a totally professional..now that would be fun to show off..
BUT I CAN'T!!
I need days and days of practice...
And days and days bores me..
I hate how things stack on top of another..like one day on another..one pancake on another..and so on...

I'm gonna make it a long post..like the longest post I ever made in the history of post posted by me!

*whistles..
So what now..
Okay..you got me..I can't whistle..geez..stop being so picky..

If...if...if...someone is watching me blog right now..
They'll totally think I'm some kind of freak..
Why? you asked?
Well..Let me explain..

If you see someone..let this someone be...Bob..
So little Bob here..likes....cheese...just like me..
While shopping for cheese..He was like.."oh cheese..my favourite.."..
And he picked up the cheese..and was like.."Hey...you single..?"...
WILL THAT BE WEIRD??!?!?!?
Of course not..

Cause me...talking to the blog I'm posting...Now thats weird!!!
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Okay..I'm out of stuff to say..
So I'm out peeps!!

Peace out A town..

Movies!

2009-08-05T20:31:00.003+08:00

Its been really long since I went for a movie in the cinema..
Its been like..wait..4 months! Or less!
Its horrible..I know...
Theres loads of movies I wanna watch..
1. Aliens in the Attic ( like duh.Ashley Tisdale is in it!)
2. I Love You Beth Cooper
3. Ghost of Girlfriend's Past
4. The proposal
5. The Orphan
6. Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
7. Bandslam
8. World's Greatest Dad
9. Up ( who doesn't like cute animated old man? and a wilderness explorer? oh..and a flying house?)
10. G-Force (oh you know you like guinea pigs..I know I do)
11. And of course...drum rolls please...
The most anticipated movie EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NEWMOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay..I can't stand yelling NEWMOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for so long..

Anywayz
Gotta run..
Hope I can finish my movies list ASAP..

Chao!
AsC

Please..

2009-08-03T21:07:00.003+08:00

Oh please..
When's school gonna be closed?
I'm so sick of school..
I hate being stuck in a rut..
Doing the same thing over and over and over and over again and again and again and again..
And I'm freakin confused at every single thing..
Nothing is going my way..
You know why?
Cause...I DON' T EVEN HAVE A WAY!
I don't know whats wrong with people..
Some are desperate for love..
I don't know how it really feels like..
So I can't judge or say anything actually..
Still..I wish all of you lovebirds happy!! especially my best friend...oh you know I'm talking bout you...admit it..
Oh ya...in case you're wondering..I DON'T DATE!
Sheesh..for the last time..I won't date at a time like this..
So quit asking me why and don't say I hurt your feelings or whatever...I warned you..
And by date...I mean having a boyfriend..I don't mean like going out for dates okay..
Get a clue...

So BYE!
Still got homework to do..
Lurve,
Amanda.W♥

hey..

2009-07-28T21:45:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not updating..
I've been tweeting..
So most of my stuff got tweeted so I didn't post it here..
Cause that might be pretty boring to say the same thing over and over and over again..
So..
I'm gonna update some facts about the fabulous..Me!
#1.
I am trying to be nice to everyone..
And yes..including those..you know who..
Cause I don't wanna be the mean and the heartless girl as many of you had told me so..
#2.
I'm gonna start studying!!
YAY!!!
But..
I CAN'T!!!
Sad isn't it?
I can't concentrate..
All I do is...waste my time away..
I still don't realize how close the examination is...
Wow..that's weird..I just said I don't realize that the exam is near..but then I know the exam is near....freaky......
#3!
Sorry..I just felt like yelling "FACT 3!"..so that explains the exclamation mark.
Anyhoo..I've became pretty addicted to milk and oreos..
In fact..I'm having oreos as we speak!
Oh wait..
Two sec..
...
..
OMGosh..
I've just realized something...
My so-called-oreo is a fake!
It some kind of Cream-O thing..
Dang! I've been fooled all along...

Well..thats enough facts for today..
Man this is tiring..
Maybe I'll reward myself with another fake oreo..
TOODLES!

Love,
Amanda

BTD!

2009-07-21T22:22:00.002+08:00

I think I have loads of posts of me saying I'm bored..
Anyhoo..I just finished my homework..
And when I was going to start my tuition homework..
I realized there's TONS of them..
More then a week's homework!
Oh god..
You don't really how sick this is..
My tuition teacher gave me so much homework without me realizing and I have to complete them all...
It's like..like..A LOT!!
When I can't do 1 question..I'll just give up on all..
Yup..that's me..
So I might as well don't do at all..
I'll try my best to do them..
But "my best" have limits..and those "limits" are pretty limited..

Ookay..I have no idea what I'm talking about..
Told ya I'm bored...

Gotta go..
BYE!
aMaNDa

Are you asking me to actually eat these?!

2009-07-20T20:16:00.004+08:00

Omgosh..
What would you do if there's Twilight's food?!
And that food had to be chocolates..
Twilight+Chocolate= Girl's LOVE!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!

New layout..

2009-07-19T20:43:00.002+08:00

Hey guys..notice anything different??
Yea..my blog has been renovated..
I spent ages doing this..
Okay maybe not ages..like the entire day on this..
It's like torture..
The skin really suits me..
Cause I've became a cakeholic lately..
So yeah..

See you guys!
I gotta go bathe before my mum gets home..
Or I'll be in big BIG trouble..

Adiose!
AmandaSalvatoreCullen
Peace!

I know..

2009-07-17T20:12:00.003+08:00

I've had said this once..and I'll say this again..
Please PLEASE don't make judgement before you got the truth..please..
Don't simply think of something which you are not sure..
You can ask me about the stuff on my blog..don't..please don't think of nonsense..
Well..I might not tell you who I'm talking about..
AT LEAST let me know if you are misunderstanding me..
I beg you guys..please..
If this happens again..
Then I might as well don't blog anymore..
I'll tweet instead..
Oh ya..I have twitter now..
But I'm not making this open..
I only added a few of my closer friends..cause I might say something..you know..weird..or confusing...
Oh..ya..AND if I didn't add you in twitter or whatever....it doesn't means we are not friends..ok?
Man..people are so sensitive these days..no offense though..

So Adiose..
Gotta go study for the exam..
BYe..
ASCullen

Oh..one more..

2009-07-16T21:32:00.003+08:00

One more last thing..
I got to say this..
Advice to one of my best friend out there..
I know you won't read this like...forever..
So I'm gonna let it out..
I know you really really like this guy..
But I wanna let you know his true self..
His not that Good as you thought he is..
He cheated and lied..
I don't know why are you so SO obsessed..
But its your choice..
I really can't tell you what have he done..
Maybe you'll think I'm jealous or insane to insult him like that..
But it's real..
He's a totally dickhead...
I don't mean to offense him..
But..I hate him..Okay..hate is a strong word..
I very very very very very very dislike him..
Think whatever you like..
Maybe you think I'm crazy for wanting to break my best friend's true love..
BELIEVE ME..its not true..AT ALL!
If you really really love him..I will always support you..
Maybe someday..you'll realize that he is a totally loser..
shout out to him..W.E.M.L!!!!!!
Get a life and stop acting cool..its not even cool..not even the tiniest bit..
I thought we still could be friends..but I was wrong..
Well..I don't care anymore anywayz..

See ya!
* Sorry for some of the mushy stuff..
P.S I always hated mushy stuff..

L
O
V
E
♥
A
S
C

Acting Out..

2009-07-16T21:31:00.001+08:00

Up above the surface i was just a perfect child
But underneath it all i was craving to be wild
Don't you judge by the cover it's so far from what you see
I'm losing all my patience waiting on ya to believe

I'm suffocating, i can't breathe
Let me out this cage, i'm not gonna hold back
Gonna break these chains, i'm taking control now
Gonna giva ya something to talk about
It's another side of me
I'm acting out

Set me free, i'm ready to show you
This is what i need, it's time to get dirty
Imma show you what i'm talking about
It's another side of me
I'm acting out

Welcome to a new beginning, it's time to start the show
No i don't think it matters if it's real or just a role
Once you get a taste of it you'll be begging me for more
I'll giva ya something to remember once i hit the floor
I'm letting go of what you know

Let me out this cage, i'm not gonna hold back
Gonna break these chains, i'm taking control now
Gonna give ya something to talk about
It's another side of me
I'm acting out

Set me free, i'm ready to show you
This is what i need, it's time to get dirty
Imma show you what i'm talking about
It's another side of me
I'm acting out

I've been waiting just to drive you crazy
Now it's my time and yes it feels amazing
There's nothing left of what you've seen before
Life's too short just to do what you're told

Just to do what you're told, just to do what you're told
Do what you're told
Just to do what you're told
Do what... do what you're told

Let me out this cage, i'm not gonna hold back
Gonna break these chains, i'm taking control now
Gonna give ya something to talk about
It's another side of me
I'm acting out

Set me free, i'm ready to show you
This is what i need, it's time to get dirty
Imma show you what i'm talking about
It's another side of me
I'm acting out

Life's too short just to do what you're told, i'm acting out

Life..not yours..but mine..

2009-07-16T21:10:00.004+08:00

Hey..did you know that Life is MEANT for us to complain?
Well..just in case you don't...it is..
Everything is going to wrong for me..
I'm in a whole messed up situation and can't seems to fix it..
I can't get my time planned out..
I can't reject people..I'm too afraid to hurt people's feelings..
I know..I GOT to be harsh sometimes..
But..I just can't do it..
You might think that I don't wanna do it cause I maybe have feelings for them..
Well..yeah..I DO have feelings for them..
I feel bad for them..
I feel good to be friends with them..
And I don't want to lose more and more friends..
I appreciate all the advices you guys gave..
I really do..I just don't know how to use them..
Try stepping into my shoes..
Okay..maybe its not your size..but thats not what I meant..

Oh..and some people just can't adjust their attitude..
They don't know how their reactions are making people feel..
It may make someone feel like you are looking down on them or whatever..
I know..I Do do that sometimes..but I'm just playing..
Unlike SOMEBODY..they did made all this expression indicating that I'm some sort of doofus talking to them..and that they are way way WAY better to be talking to me..
F.Y.I I don't really like talking to you either..So what if you are popular, rich AND smart..
I don't need stuck up friends..I wouldn't even say friends..
I tried to be nice..always..but they just think that I'm kneeling down to them..

Oh and to guys..PLEASE..stop acting like you are some kind of weakling..
Just be yourself..quit acting..like I WILL pity you..
And something I hate the most is people forcing me to do stuff..
The most you force me the more I don't wanna do it..
So try me..okay..except teachers..
I can't beat those hags..
And now then I realize how DO I differentiate friends..and best friends..
Don't ask me how..I just do..naturally after a while...

Its been ages since I posted this long..
Maybe I'll be continue posting some other time..
I SO got to start my tuition homework before I got murdered tomorrow..

So Chao!!!
Yours Truly..
AmandaSCullen

You SO cannot put the blame ON me!

2009-07-13T22:00:00.002+08:00

Some of you guys out there seriously need to get a grip..
Stop blaming me!
Its your own problem..solve it yourself!
I'm not Akon!
I'm obviously NOT BLACK!
Open your eyes doofus..if you have them..
I So don't have a huge "BLAME ME" sign taped behind me..
oh..wait..
...

HAH! I checked! There's none!
So stop it..its irritating..
Once or twice for fun its okay..
Don't get all serious with me..
I'll admit if I did it..
I don't need YOU to tell me..
So BUG OFF!!

And stop asking me for decisions..
I don't think I have the need to help you with this..
If you can't make some simple decisions on your own..
You might as well don't live AT ALL..

Stay in school!☺
Peace♣
Lurve
Amanda
Cullen..

I could have been dead!!

2009-07-12T20:32:00.002+08:00

Shane is right..
Boredom really kills!
I'm almost bored every single minute of my life..
Seriously..
Schools' boring..
Homes' boring..
I'm boring..
The weather is boring..
Youtube is boring..
The internet is boring..
I CAN'T see anything that is NOT boring...
p.s I am NOT exaggerating..

Peace!
AmandaSCullen..
Tweet me on Twitter..

BTD!

2009-07-02T21:32:00.002+08:00

OMG!!
That adds the -er to my boring..
So that makes my boring life became a boringer one..GREAT!!!
I don't get it..
What is wrong with the teachers??
Just something so minor and they had to let us suffer...
I'm like totally stuck in boredom now..
Doing the same freakin routine every day..
Over and over and over and over and over again...
Perfect..just perfect...

Just hope that I get to change my sitting position for a change..
Cause life is getting boringer every single day..
Yes..I AM stuck in a rut..
Oh..and my oral is coming up..hope I don't get stage fright when there's not even a freakin stage..
Pardon me for saying freakin so freakin lots of time...
Thats my word..love it..or beat it..

Kay..
BYE!
ASC

My mom..

2009-06-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

Man..my mom is sooo evil..
She can't even go buy for me some papers at 7-11 just across the stinkin' street..
Some mom...
Instead..she nagged and nagged and nagged..
"Why you don't want to buy earlier? Always last minute.."
Well..she's the one who didn't buy for me the papers when she went grocery shopping..
I told her to buy and she forgotten..
So it's my fault now?..
What is the problem with her..?
Fine..I don't need YOU to buy MY papers..I'll just go ask grandma!

Lyrics..

2009-06-21T17:13:00.003+08:00

Some lyrics can totally explain my feelings..
And they seems so real..

You Belong With Me-Taylor Swift
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me
All this time how could you not know?
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

White Horse-Taylor Swift
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known
Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

The Way I Loved You-Taylor Swift
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

Teardrops On My Guitar-Taylor Swift
Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Told'ya Taylor's song are so real and relatable..
But I'm not a big fan of her though..
Just in love with her songs..

Complicated..

2009-06-21T16:48:00.002+08:00

I freakin hate everything..
I don't know why but I DO know how..
By not feeling good at everything..obviously..

My life seriously stinks..
Can't it be like all those Talyor Swift's songs...?!
They are like fairytales..well except some..

I really can't explain my feelings at this moment...
I'm too afraid..afraid of the consequences...
Mostly..I look things on the dark side instead of the bright one..
What Is Freakin Wrong With Me?!
Oh..and I like being emo these few days..
It just came to me..
I really don't know how to feel..
Its confusing..
Cause I get over someone real quick since I got to high school..
And by real quick..I mean real..REAL..quick..
I'd like to just stick to the boring old days..
When I'm the unnoticeable nerd..
And no one even know I existed..secretly crushing on someone..
Good times..good times..

By the way..is it just me? or is my blog getting boringer and boringer??

Bored to Death,
AmandaSC

Back off!

2009-06-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

Okay..barbie girl..
You so gotta back off..
Don't you dare to hurt my best friend..
Not one messes with my BFF except me..
You so don't realize that I hated you so SO much..
Don't think everyone will fall for your stinky little tricks..
Well, MY sista ain't that stupid!!
So get your paws of her and go back to your gay affairs..
Sorry to be mean..but I Am mean..
And yea..YOU THINK YOU'RE SO COOL?! Well..the truth is..I really think deep down..I actually think that YOU ARE SO NOT COOL!!!
Get a stinkin life of your own!!!
Some kind of chick magnet you are...more of a Shit magnet..
chick,shit..it kinda rhymes..so..

WORD!
A-Cullen! Peace!

First day of Freakin School..

2009-06-15T21:55:00.003+08:00

Oh..goodie..
School started..
I was excited to see my friends...
But not so excited for the results..
Whatever..its not like I care anyway..

Honestly..I seriously liked being in school more then at home..
The only thing I like about my home is my computer and the bed..
No kidding..I don't know why either..
There's alot going on here these day..and its hard for me to take it..
When I got home..I just got all emoed-up..
My mum scolded me for not talking much at home..
She should blame herself..
She's the one who scolded me the whole time when I was little..
Whenever I got home..I tried to talk about my day at school and she'll just asked me to don't annoy her..
And now she blames me for not talking..
What a freak..
And she freakin don't understand me..
Same goes with my dad..
We don't talk much and he don't me much but..his horrible temper is just...indescribable..

So We Ended Up Becoming A Family Lacking of Communication...
Amazing..

Peace out!!
Amanda

Boring much?

2009-06-09T20:14:00.004+08:00

Man this holiday is the boringest i ever had..
Nothing to do except online online online..
Not what I expected...
I was hoping a fun holiday...loads of hanging out and stuff..
Argh..and why aren't you guys online?
I'm bored to death here...some help maybe?
My sis..both of them AND jing are going to KL tomorrow...
And I have to stay at home alone...I KNOW! Horrible isn't it?!
I really have nothing to do and nothing to say..

YAY..
Breaking news..
I AM going to KL..
Cause I have nothing better to do at home...

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Chao,
Lurve,
Amanda.

HE! True Holywood Story

2009-06-05T23:07:00.002+08:00

This's just in with Ryan Seacrest...okay maybe not Ryan..
Whatever..
Barbie Girl strikes again as he lied..
Must he lie to every single girl on EARTH?!
Everything he said must be lies...

Best wedding yet..

2009-06-04T01:12:00.001+08:00

Today is my aunt's wedding..
I just came back..
Its the most A-M-A-Z-I-N-G wedding ever..
The ballroom was decorated all purple and lavender-ish..
Its so beautiful..
They had games and stuff..
And my aunt is prettier then ever!
I'll upload the pics some other time when my aunt's photographer gives it to us..
Still..I did upload some pics on my friendster..
Check it out..
I know my hair is like alice's..DON"T LAUGH!

Peace,
Lurve,
Amanda!

Barbie Girl: Nightmare

2009-05-31T20:29:00.002+08:00

Everyone has their worst nightmare right?
Well..mine involved Barbie girl..
How lucky can I get?!
It the worst...indescribable thing!
Gosh..
Here..take a look.
.
Don't forget the breast cancer!

You should know..

2009-05-31T18:31:00.002+08:00

So about this barbie girl thing..
Believe it or not..its true..

So what If if its true..??
I just wanna express my feelings...still..no offence..okay..maybe alot of offence..but...Whatever!

If you really really wanna know who this BARBIE GIRL is..
Well...the truth is...you're never gonna know..
So don't go wondering if its you or whoever..
Don't make personal judgement kay?

So..I better answer your questions before you ask me..
Its all either a NO or an I DON'T KNOW..
So..save it and don't ask me..

Just so you know?
It IS based on Heng Ee! True Holywood Story..

Barbie Girl: Hall of Lame

2009-05-30T20:04:00.006+08:00

So the saga continues in today's episode..

So, after he shot me that look of his...I was like..."What?!"
Then he walked away...
So I've been told..
He can act..really well..
He had his act on every target of his...
He must be like.."A good day's charm always does the trick"..
Never in my life I would believe that I actually fell for his trick..
I didn't fell for his *cough charm or his *cough style..
I just thought he was a nice guy and I should give this a shot..

How childish of me to think that maybe we could be friends..
But,but,but...there's always a "but" in life to FACE IT!!

I saw his true face under that mask all along..
I was daydreaming one day...*dream..dream..dream
And he was like..acting cool...*act..act..act
Then suddenly..BAM!! his mask fell and it was shocking!! THE HORROR!!

See the difference?? Shocking isn't it??
Since he's so good at acting and luring targets by being all fakey-fake..
He should be nominated for the Grammys..

BEST BISEXUAL ACTOR/RESS AWARD *applause

Shopping spree

2009-05-30T19:52:00.004+08:00

Okay..hey..
Today I went shopping with my grandma..
We went to both Gurney AND Queensbay..
ZzZ much?
Anyhow..at least I get to buy a magazine and eminem's album..yay me!
And now me and jing are jut chillin...
And did I mention how amazing Adam's Black and White is??
Man I LOVE that song...
Thats the first song I listen to when I just came back from the last day of school..
I shall continue my ranting and craps..so tuned in!!

Kisses!!
amanda♥♥♥

Looking for a Snow God..

2009-05-29T23:23:00.002+08:00

I have nothing better to talk about..
So here I go again..ranting at just about anything...
So what is up with us never getting the opportunity of experiencing the joy of a snow day?
I know our DARN country is located at the DARN equator and is one of the DARN tropical country or whatever.
Maybe we should do some ritual sacrifices..
The best sacrifice is by serving um...TEACHERS!!! Buu-yahh!
They shouldn't be just spread across the land...as that would trouble the God to pick them up one by one...so..that's why what the Mokgobja family did was needless..
To make things easier...they should be all piled together...and um..stab a long stick into them..
That would make a easy to eat barbecue-of-teachers for the God. The all-so-great God can just pick them up one shot and burn them on the volcano somewhere to get it all cooked up..
Hmm...de-licious..

*note: Don't pick too much female teachers as their skin are mostly all moldy wrinkles because they have no time to take care of because their husbands left them..

Enjoy your meal oh dear God and repay us back by giving us the needless snow..we loved our teachers.out of desperate measures, we had to make the choice and sacrificing them hurts our soul so much...NOT!

BarbieGirl: Introduction

2009-05-29T17:05:00.007+08:00

So..there's a guy (yes, A guy) named Barbie with the last name...Girl...
Okay, moving on..So why the girly name you ask..let me tell you..she..well..he actually is a bisexual..
The thing is..he like to take girls down as targets and boys as..well..targets in another gayish kinda way..
And he's roaming at my school..YES! MY school..how unfortunately of me..
Anywayz..I'm glad he never goes online and read blogs..or I'll be murdered or even worst..*shivers

Well..let me start by telling the story of ME being friends with him..
Okay so it was a typical day at school..I was minding my own business..*mind..mind..mind

Then he suddenly walked in...his "chihuahua" hung at his back..and he walked in the class striking the poses..
It was like a whole Paris Hilton scene..
Just imagine it WITHOUT the paparazzi. the red carpet. the fans ( I'm not sure about that). the pink glamorous dress. And DON'T even mention about the looks.
Okay. I had to admit I was stunned. He walked one foot to the front and follow by another in a I'm-so-cool-and-you-must-be-in-love-with-me style. I think i barfed a little..
He suddenly looked at me and he did this annoying expression..
It wasn't a smile nor a glare..It was like...something like this
TEN •TEN• TEN~!!!!!!! *its a sound effect..get it?

Kay, I got lazy and eventually made a non-related scene...enjoy...

The amazing series of Barbie girl...

2009-05-29T16:03:00.005+08:00

~BARBIE GIRL THEME SONG~

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

I'm gonna introduce to you guys a new section of my blog..
Its about someone at school which I introduce as Barbie girl..
Don't ask me who..never gonna tell'ya..

Con-grats!!

2009-05-29T13:44:00.003+08:00

I would like to congratulate my aunt for getting married..
I've been given the honor to write the speech for the groom..
Hope they can live happily ever after!!..okay..fairytale much?

FREE AT LAST!

2009-05-29T13:33:00.002+08:00

The sweet smell of freedom!!
Finally the EXAM has gone and I'm FREE AT LAST!
I thought I'm going to just hop into bed and sleep the night away but I'm too hyped to sleep when I can do anything I want...well...not really anything
At least I get to listen to music real real real loud..that's the thing I Love the most about my room...
Anyhoo...I'm gonna post blogs like mad..MAD as in REAL MAD...
There are no boundaries to them...get it? no boundaries?....okay..not funny...
I don't really want to think about my results just yet..so note to everyone out there...DON'T ASK ME ABOUT THE RESULTS..yet..
I'm gonna go on to the next blog..

Toodles!
◘ASC◘

Adam Rules, School Drools..

2009-05-27T20:31:00.003+08:00

Okay. I'm not gonna talk about Adam today..
I just wrote Adam in the title because I don't know what else rules and he really DOES rules..
So yeah..
Today I wanna shine the spotlight on SCHOOL DROOLS!!
It really does drools..especially when it comes to EXAM...
I finally understands what "EXAM" stands for..
Extra torture
Xust for no purpose
Antil we get
Mad and old..
So..okay I DON'T know what EXAM means..still..its torturing..
See how I use capital letters for the word E-X-A-M ??
It shows its evilness-ses..s...Whatever..brilliant right?
Just imagine it...
You're walking down the street...happily skipping away..*skippy-dee,skippy-dee,skip-skip
Then suddenly BAM!...there's the EXAM and you can't skip happily cause you're lack of sleep or gone mad or any other horrible reason that make you not...well...YOU..
The EXAM will corner you up and eat your BRAIN and drown you in the deep pool of HORRIBLE RESULTS!! *shocking music

Okay okay..I admit..I AM exaggerating a little bit here and there..
Well..its not wrong cause now I'm gonna talk about the benefits of EXAM...

So..What are the benefits of EXAM??
Lemmi tell ya..
It will shove loads of "knowledge" into our head..
Just think of all the knowledge that we can apply in our life..
OoH!
Like how we can use the impulsive force thingy and quickly calculate it in the car while crashing to a wall...
And like how we can talk about history with a bunch of cows that have no idea what we're talking about and just stood there wanting more grass..
And don't forget how we can use the novel and cute little poems to show that we CAN read all along..and to proof it..We have to spill everything we learned in the EXAM..yipee..!

Besides, EXAM gives us the benefits to skip meals and getting shadows under the eyes..
Truly amazing..!! It slowly adds up craps in our brain..wait ..Did I just said crap?? My bad..what i meant was ...."knowledge" and make our head look big and causing us to go for surgery because all the "knowledge" had given us brain tumor..
For those who never had surgery before or getting cancer...go sit for an EXAM and you can have the experience of your life!! And by your life..I meant you gotta be kidding me..

Later,
♥ Amanda
*Never.NEVER get sick of sarcasm.

Adam Rules!

2009-05-23T17:07:00.004+08:00

GOD ADAM IS SO CUTE AND DOWN TO EARTH...HOW COULD YOU NOT LOVE HIM..

P.S He is so NOT gay..
To all the haters out there..get a life!

With ♥ Always
Amanda Cullen
xoxo.Good luckcause you're gonna need it..

Gosh..

2009-05-21T22:48:00.004+08:00

Gosh..I can-not be-lieve it..
Kris won...
Obviously..Adam lost...how can that be possible?
Everyone was expecting Adam to be crowned as the American Idol...
Its just like the David Archuleta's season..
He obviously should be the winner and ended up it was David Cook..Oh god..
Anyhow..I still like all of them the way they are..
Wellp..I so gotta go to bed now..still got exam tomorrow..how exciting..
This time..my icons are gonna go AI style...just for this post...then its Twilight all the way..

Like Kris☺

Love Adam♥

Save the Seals!

2009-05-13T00:46:00.004+08:00

My god..I can't believe people actually go for sports like clubbing baby seals..
Are they brainless or some sort of idiotic freaks?!
Argh..I just can't believe it...
Baby seals are so innocent and cute...they don't deserve these kind of torture..
So get a grip and go hit yourself with a golf club until it bleeds and see how that feels..
I have no idea how am I suppose to save them since they are so far away...even if I'm there..I couldn't do anything either..
To those seal-killing-sports-lover out there...Please..have a heart...
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From,
ASC.

The truth about me..

2009-05-03T22:25:00.003+08:00

Its been ages since I blogged about my pathetic life..
So..here goes..

I was sick yesterday..
Thrown up like almost 2 times or so...
Whatever..I don't care as long as I'm perfectly fine now! Good as New..

Wellp..there's something you guys may not know about me..may..just may...

First, I'd been on one of Disney channel's advertisement for Hannah Montana...
Just for like...a millisecond or so..
My and my cousins submitted a short "music video" to the Hannah Montana contest like years ago..form 2 I think...
We did get into the finals and some part of the video was made into a short ad along with the other contestant's video..
Still, I'm super excited to be on Tv for a less than a sec..at least I get to...
And no..I did not win the darn contest...

Second, I joined a singing contest before..
I think its last year..
It totally sucked..thank you very much..
We did make it into the finals but still we lost..
Because~....I applied for the under 12 section..*doofus..
And we got eliminated..perfect..

Third, I had a band..
Me and my cousins...I forgot the band name..
But it's quite fun..
We did this meeting stuff and we did videos and soundtrack...
Copyrighted of course..we can't make our own songs now can we?
We just sang to the karaoke version of songs and lip-synced to videos..
We gave the DVDs to our grandparents for her birthday...
Its super super extremely embarrassing...
If its leaked...I'll die...

Fourth, I freakin hate Chinese..
I don't know why..but Chinese is just not my thing..
I stink at it...and I don't like Chinese songs...
I'm not saying that I wanna act like an American and stuff...
Argh..I just dunno how to say this right..
I'll try to improve my Chinese...somehow...
Till then....I hate Chinese...

So yeah...I think four is enough for one post...
So..buh-bye..
I gotta hit the hay now..got school tomorrow...how great is that..

Peace!
Amanda

Sports Day.

2009-04-24T23:27:00.003+08:00

Today is our school's annual Sports Day..
It was horrible..
It was pouring rain after the events started..
Some poor kid have to run in the rain..
Thank god I wasn't involve...I'll never be involved anyway..
I suck at sports..I rather be killed than have to run those no-ending tracks..
Hate that I didn't get to duty today...its extremely boring being the audience..
And I'm so sleepy at that time....
I have plenty time to kill because I don't even bother watching them run...
Sorry for being un-supportive but seriously..I'm not interested..Our team got last anyway...zz
Go red...y...a....y.....=.=

Peace,
♣Amanda♠

Three..

2009-04-20T19:57:00.003+08:00

3 things I hate the most right now..
And I can't stand to not post it up..

1st.....My sitting position..
I thought I get to change my sitting position today...but no~...
The teacher HAD to let me keep my original place...so much for getting to change the scene for god's sake....Is changing my sitting position that hard??..instead..people beside me come and go..

2nd....My freakishly short hair..
How great..my mum ask the so-called-hair stylist to cut my hair shorter than usual so I won't need to have my hair cut next month...And I don't got to have a word or any negotiation...

3rd....My sitting position and my freakishly short hair...ARGH!!
Isn't it great...I don't get to sit with people I prefer And I have hair shorter than a short stick...AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

•ASC•

My b'day Wishlist...

2009-04-19T22:38:00.013+08:00

I know..My birthday is still months away...
If you have no idea what to get me for my present..
Here's a few gifts that I would definitely love..
Its cheap and can be purchased anywhere...
Here goes..

My dream cake

My dream fragrances

My dream car Edward's Volvo

Most of All..
My dream guy

So..??
I prefer all to be tied with a BIG red bow...
Thanks..!!

♠Lurve Amanda Salvatore Cullen♣